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So Paranoid!!
03:47
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Looking for the danger signs, find a new one every time
Gotta break the habit of looking the other way
Locked back inside my fantasy that you even care for me
Why are you so paranoid near me?
Guess you've got a reason to, I've never been good for you
Never even talked to you, never even looked at you
Did I even talk to you? Did I even look at you?
Is anything that I say true? Tell me.
My memory's gone.
Gotta know
Every death makes me a fool
I die and creep closer to you
Every day I'm trying to live
In the same world as you do.
All this pent-up anxiety
Might haunt me when I'm twenty-three
Why am I so paranoid? Beats me.
I sleep with my ear to the wall.
I drive with 9-1-1 on call
I feel there's someone watching me
Hide my phone camera while I pee.
I'm living in the Truman Show
You're watching as I overdose
They're preying on the trustworthy
Called you twice, get back to me.
Looking for the danger signs, find a new one every time
Gotta break the habit of looking the other way
Locked back inside my fantasy that you even care for me
Why am I so paranoid near me?
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2. |
Iris (A Different One)
02:10
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If I get to love you
I'll shower you with affectation
Love will be bigger than the nation
If we get that far
If I get to show you how much I want to get to know you
I hope you'll promise that you will stick to my heart
'Cause it hurt my head before
And I don't want that anymore
And you'll be different from the rest, I just know
'Cause we're so close and we're so poor
In prior love, I'll love you more
If we get, if we get that far
If I get to love you
I'll shower you with expectation
Love will blow up in your face and
I guess you'll be scarred
But I mean scar as in a good way
Can scar be meant in any good way?
I hope you look behind the tension, no repertoire
'Cause it hurt my head before
And I don't want that anymore
And you'll be different from the rest, I just know
'Cause we're so close and we're so poor
In prior love, I'll love you more
If we get, if we get, that far
That far
'Cause I know what I had before
And I don't want that anymore
If I love you I hope you will at least like me too.
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3. |
October Sick!
03:45
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Why should I try
If you're not going to?
I just want to
Die rolled, goodbye
You leave me feeling sad and drained of
Who I can be, but that's all on me
I should've seen the signs on the road
Now I'm stuck looking through the rearview mirror
Objects much farther than they appear
Getting much harder, busting a tear
I just want you here with me again
I miss you being here, are we still friends?
Cause though I'm happy that it's over
I'm still left longing for October
October.
I still miss you when you're around
Do you hear that sound?
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4. |
Gregor (It Was No Dream)
03:32
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They won't even look at me
Am I really that ugly?
Thanks for the back injury
They think I've no empathy
They leave me to God.
They think that I cannot hear
I'm just a shell of sin to fear
They're no longer responsible
Who thought it was possible?
They leave me to God.
I only wanted to talk to you
I only wanted a look at you
I'm still here
It's still me
I'm still here
It's still me
They turn their backs and look away (I don't blame them just one bit)
They find something else to say
Shut the door, don't clean the room
Emaciate until my doom
They've left me to God.
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5. |
Every Little Death
04:14
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Let me stay fantasizing
A dream undreamt is a dream surmised and
I dreamed I sank under the water
Moved just like her, wonder who taught her
Her love infrequent, yet I adored it
The bombs were heavy so I ignored it
Among the atmosphere, I just waited here for the fallout
The night ain’t over
You can kiss me
The night ain’t over
You can kiss me
I lifted my hand from the water
Nothing dripped down from my fingers
I lifted my hand from the water, from the water
Every little death makes me a fool
Because I die and creep closer to you
Baby, I don’t know what imma do
Every little death makes me a fool
And every little death makes living true
But with every little death, I’m losing you
I don’t know who you want me to be
With every little death, I’m losing me
The night ain’t over
You can kiss me
The night ain’t over
You can kiss me
I lifted my hand from the water
Nothing dripped down from my fingers
I lifted my hand from the water, from the water——
Every little death makes me a fool
Because I die and creep closer to you
Baby, I don’t know what imma do
Every little death makes me a fool
And every little thought that hits my mind
Leaves me feeling broken up inside
When my swim is over, this pool’s still a pool
Every little death makes me a fool
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Would you object if I objectified your skin?
It's evident I can't express me from within
Filtered through filters filtered through all of the time
My meager words are crumbs from the feast of my mind
Oh, who am I trying to be?
Compensating for the books I don't read
Or the people I can't read at all
Only I can make me feel so small
Find me in the forest with the trees
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7. |
Suzy Saturn
05:28
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I was a dead man
I had an awful plan
Oh, I would shoot him
Before he shot me
It was a battle
It didn't have to be
It was a battle
I didn't know it yet
And he said—
Can you feel my heart beat, baby?
Can you feel my love for you?
Can't you see I'm going crazy?
There is nothing I can do
Baby I can't sleep without you
I can't even sing my song
Baby I can't live without you
These couple weeks have felt so long
Bright light
I'm moving in tight
Oh, it's a big fight
And I'm a pacifist, I'm through with this
A green light
Speeding in dim light
A deer in headlights
Is in the corner making her way to the
Crosswalk
Baby, can we talk?
I don't want to ____
And now your shirt is off, and here we go
The same thing
Every weekend
And I can't pretend
To love you anymore, I'm in between the door
I can't love anyone
And I'm okay with that
I should want this
But I don't.
I was a dead man
A dirty look can kill
A couple rumours
But I'm no loser
I'm taking it in stride, you're taking it too far
I've got nothing to hide, you're lowering the bar
I hear no evil and my lips hurt, and yet I hear you whisper
When you realize you can't kill me
Can you feel my heart beat, baby?
Can you feel my love for you?
Can't you see I'm going crazy?
There is nothing I can do
Baby I can't sleep without you
I can't even sing my song
Baby I can't live without you
These couple weeks have felt so long
Bright light
I'm moving in tight
Oh, it's a big fight
And I'm a pacifist, I'm through with this
A green light
Speeding in dim light
A deer in headlights
Is in the corner making her way to the
Crosswalk
Baby, can we talk?
I don't want to ____
And now your shirt is off, and here we go
The same thing
Every weekend
And I can't pretend
To love you anymore, I'm in between the door
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8. |
Tiramissyou
01:33
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I miss when this used to mean something (nothing)
Eye contact with the bridge of our noses
Really, I'm just clinging to nothing (something)
Acting natural with preconceived poses
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
Most days I just say nothing
Other times I wish I did
I'm stalling in the restroom
Yet I'm rested like a cheapskate trying to bid
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
And you tell me it's alright
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Stoic smile, all the while
The sky will fall; you never call
Oh, the earth, it quakes with lies;
Mosquito prick against the thighs.
The smaller tragedies will kill me soon
A black Bukowski staring at the moon
In my red hunting cap, you look so phony
I love you so much, yet I feel so lonely
The trivialities serve as the blade
Piercing my skin and leaving me insane
You're in the corner sipping lemonade
I'm burning out and yet I feel me fade
It's not your fate, it's not your fight
If you want my life you've got to fight it right
No, it's not for free, you've got to get through me
My shoelace is untied
Do me like formaldehyde
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10. |
Away
03:20
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It's almost fall and I want to.
We were all; ubuntu
Please don't leave, stay with me.
Don't go away.
I ain't felt this good in a while
Vegan leather jacket on, curtains drawn, and I'm feeling
It's a little hard not to think at all
But once you get the hang of it, you'll find it so appealing
But that's not fair and that's not right
It all goes away at night
Why can't I be this erudite?
I try to bark but I just bite
I know you've been lost before
But I've trailed along this road
And if you don't know where to go
I'll take your hand and help you find a way.
It's almost fall, I don't want to-
We were all; ubuntu
Broken family
Oh, mother, please don't go away.
Don't nobody say nothin' to the children.
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11. |
Hello Sunshine
01:45
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Hello sunshine
It's good to see you today
Tomorrow morning will come, sunshine, okay?
Hello sunshine
I ain't seen you for a while
You melt the ice in the winter and make me smile.
I've missed you time and time again
My blinds were closed, eyes shut, and I was changing
I felt so cold, I felt my goosebumps as they were rearranging.
Hello sunshine
A coming light in the morning
And I'm warning the moon not to block your light
And the snow will fall soon, my skin will feel so tight
Until the sunshine comes back again.
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Fishgrape Baltimore, Maryland
welcome to FISHGRAPE!
listen to Vertigo Away!
Fishgrape recommends:
Have a Good Day
by attention the universe
i love this album (Have a Good Day) a lot
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great artist
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